I'm in one of those moods. This may be a mood that not all of you have felt, but likely well sometime in your life. It's what happens when you have an anxiety-thing, watch a sad movie, and listen to sad songs. There's nothing that can make me happy, and there's nothing to be happy about. Everything good is bad, but there isn't anything good anyway. Love ends in tragedy, happiness is never real, and people are only here because they want something from you. It's not like I enjoy feeling this way, it's almost like some sort of sadistic self-pleasure. I'm unhappy, and I make it impossible for myself to get happy. Anytime some form of happiness comes up, or even the possibility of such, it's shot down instantaneously. It's not even a useful sad, it provides no creative fuel. I can't write a song, do homework, or even play videogames. All I can do is type this blog, and listen to more depressing music. I need a stronger vice than food, like alcohol or something. This blog is a real downer. Now I feel bad about making you have to read it. You shouldn't have to, I'll understand if you don't want to read anymore. So much so, that I think I'll quit typing.

Alright, since someone has inquired about Wal-Mart, I'll share what I know. I'm pretty sure I mentioned plenty of it in previous posts though. Anywho, Wal-Mart is an evil whore, much similar to someone who shall be unnamed, but most of you will guess. My beef with Wal-Mart isn't so much the fact that they put other businesses, namely mom and pop stores, out of business on a daily basis, it's that, for one, they are liars. They are liars in the sense that they sell you name-brand products, that aren't name brand. The entire reason for establishing a name brand is so that people will associate that name with a certain standard, or quality. For instance, Jeeps are well known for being long-lasting, dependable, god-like vehicles. This is because, they have proven themselves through-out the years, with such things as WWII and whatnot. Moving on, they cost a bit more, but are worth it to most consumers. Now, what Wal-Mart does, is make manufacturers go against their quality standards. Kind of like if Jeep took Honda's and put Jeep stickers on them. You're getting a shitty Honda, not a Jeep. So, when you go into Wal-Mart and see a pair of Levi jeans, they aren't Levi. They're (insert shitty jean brand name here) jeans, but a little bit cheaper. This is flat out lying to a consumer. You know that HP computer that they sell at Wal-Mart? IT'S REFURBISHED AND HAS NO POSSIBILITY FOR EXPANSION. That's right, it isn't HP. HP builds a quality computer for a reasonable price. Wal-Mart sells HP's that are of the "W" class. For instance, an HP335w. This computer was rebuilt from a piece of shit, branded with HP, and put on a shelf for a knowledgeless (sp?) consumer to purchase. Now, for the argument that Wal-Mart can't make a company do anything. First off, fuck you. Secondly, mind if I let a drug dealer move into your basement? It's alright, he can't MAKE you do anything, can he? Next, Wal-Mart breaks the law on a daily basis. Such things as cheating employees from wages, violating environmental acts (the meaningful ones, not the radical extremist crazy ones), and other various things. Now, almost everything I've said, and more is all over the internet. Just go ahead and google it, you'll find more than you ever wanted to know. There are documentaries, essays, and real-life stories. My own theory, which isn't much of a theory, more like what's actually happening, cannot to my knowledge be found on the internet. My "theory" is that Wal-Mart is lowering the standard of living in the U.S. and even in China. Being that Wal-Mart is in its finest form a pipeline for Chinese manufacturers to U.S. consumers. They support the production of cheap shit from China, which promotes companies hiring children making $0.14 an hour, and working 70 some hours a week. Back to the theory. The average Wal-Mart employee makes $4,000 less than the poverty level for an american citizen, that's full time mind you. Now keeping in mind that somewhere of about %80 of employees are full-time, and in that poverty range, that's a scary thought. The details go on and on, please look into on your own. I implore you to do your own research, please please do so. If and when you decide you are against Wal-Mart, come talk to me, in person, and perhaps, when I get enough people, I love commas, especially misused ones, I think this might be hard to follow, it must be, we'll do something about it.
On a different note, some of you may find this fact interesting. Just recently ExxonMobil, (Exxon and Mobil are the same fucking company), moved up to number one in the "Fortune 500's most shareholders" list, making Wal-Mart second. Wal-Marts transports 99% of goods, (already in America), by trucking. The semi's that use gas that is sold by ExxonMobil. I just thought that was a tasty tidbit, considering EVERYTHING coming to Wal-Mart store was once in Arkansas.....that's a long drive ain't it?
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I got to do something this evening that I usually don't get the chance to do, look at the moon. Of all the planets and things of being in the entire universe, the moon is quite possibly my favorite. It's our distant neighbor, that in the scheme of the universe, isn't very distant. It provides light, but not nearly as much as the sun. The moon isn't as aesthically pleasing as the sun is, which makes it all the more pleasing to me. The moon competes with more than the sun, it has thousands upon millions upon billions of stars to fight with to get your attention, whereas the sun only has itself. The moon is in a crowded sky, but it's not close to anything. The only friends the moon has are the ones who look up at it, and talk to it. The moon is always shining, whether we see it or not. Even if the sky is covered in clouds and birds and everything else, that moon will still be shining. It's almost a sign of faith and belief. I know, that even during an eclipse, or even if I were blind, that that moon would still be shining. Even when only part of it can be seen, I know the rest of it will come out in a while and show it's pretty moon-face to all of us. The moon is attainable, as it has been walked on many a time, this too makes it all the more a pleasing celestial being. The moon is also only present in the dark, as if it is afraid of the light. I sort of love the moon. Not because it is a gigantic rock zooming around our own planet, but because it is a big rock zooming around our planet that represents so many things. Thanks for being the moon, moon.

Well folks, what's up? Not a whole lot here. Some good news though. Only 10 more days of work left, wooooot! That'll mean more free time for me, and maybe a chance to do some of my homework. Also, 39 days of school left, wooooooooooooot. I think it will be a good summer. I have a car and a license this year, and I live in Marion, well, Caledonia anyway. What do I plan to do? Probably get a job, and play drums. We better practice a lot over vacation. And, for a job, I need suggestions. If you have any ideas, tell me. My goal for working this summer, to be able to buy a motorcycle. I hear people say I'm not the motorcycle type, well you must not know me very well. For those of you who think I am the type, I don't know. I'm more the type for everything, so it's hard to tell. So, those are my summer ambitions. As for now, I have a shit load of homework, so see you all later. And thanks for letting me have a good year next year Aimee.

And now for some not so fortunate news. Short Notice will officially not be participating in the battle of the bands on April 7th. I know everyone is going to be pretty dissapointed, but we plan on holding our on concert sometime in late spring or over the summer. And it will actually be good. We just need more time to jam, to practice, and to get some music flowing.
Another thing to slightly depress all of my readers, being alone. It's never fun to here people talk about how they're going to spend time with their significant other, and then think to yourself, "Yeah, I'll probably go home and sit in a dark room by myself." I usually have the light on the, but that is beside the point. This Spring Break hasn't been too incredibly good or bad. I've worked everyday except Monday and Friday, Saturday counts as a working day as well. Perhaps I just need to get a puppy, or kidnap someone, or something like that.
On a final note, I am so not ready to go back to school. Just the thought that I have to go back to school after just another day, brings vomit to my throat. There's really nothing I dislike more than going to that wretched place for 7 hours of my life. Especially for things like, English, Intro. to Business, and Keyboarding. Pre-Calculus honestly isn't that bad, because I'm learning, I'm gaining something from that class. Something more than a couple minutes of "shut-eye" that is. I miss classes like German. I always learned something in that class. Even if it was just as simple as walking up to Frau and learning what a word meant. Those were the days. What a depressing year. This is officially NOT my favorite year of High School. Having my Jeep and computer paid off is cool, and moving closer to Marion was nice, but still. I don't even have real high-speed internet anymore. For someone like me, that sort of thing is a must. Maybe everyone else is just having that good of a year, and I need to bear the brunt of having a shitty one. So I hope everyone has a really really really good year, because I think I want next year to be a good one, which means that someone else will have to have a bad one. Maybe it'll be someone I dislike, that'd be cool. That was a long final note. If anyone should happen to read this, and it's still Saturday, or even Sunday, I'm available. I'm really bored enough to say that I'm bored to anyone on the Internet. Even if I don't like you, I'd probably hang out with you. Or maybe I'll just watch Scarface again.